Do people see me as how I look in the mirror or in my camera?? (F19) I have no idea what I look like anymore

I don't know if this is the reddit to post on but i really need some reassurance or advice

I've never been more torn on my appearance before, last week my friend took a candid photo of me, safe to say I did not recognize myself.

I have never thought I was ugly as I did looking at that photo, yet all of my friends assured me that is what I look like to them.. i'm terrified now that what I see in the mirror is just a mental projection of what I want to look like and not the disgusting reality , i'm now faced with.

How can I look so different?? Why is it that my selfie camera seems to distort my appearance to the point I don't recognize myself and it sends to me into a spiral, while what I see in the mirror makes me feel like I belong on vogue. This has me so worked up genuinely been researching plastic surgery, am I crazy??